3rd day of my 6 cycle of chemo, every now and then there is a constant reminder of how I should be greatful of all the good things in my life. God keeps sustaining me with all my needs, from chemo medicine to very supportive friends and family, and He keeps sending more blessings.

I feel like am not worthy of all HIS blessings, because I sometimes failed to recognize all of it, I have become impatient for help and healing. Lord I just want to give you all the praise and glory.......thank you for helping me go through this. I continue to trust you and have faith in you. A faith that humbles me. A faith that shines so brightly in the midst of such darkness in my life :-)

PRAY, LOVE and LIVE
Jen ;-)

I started my fundraising online to help me fund my alternative treatment.  At first I was excited for this project as this can help me prolonged my life and hoping that cure will happen.  I do not know why alternative treatment can be so expensive but what I know is that I'll do every effort just to live my life and spend more time with my daughter.  I started having high dose vitamin C which cost me $200 every infusion.  I am supposed to have 2x a week with this but decided to have it weekly, since money can be an issue.  Aside from this I am looking to have the hyperthemia treatment which has a great result of killing cancer cells.  I called the office in Langley BC and asked how much it is going to cost for a phone consultation and so I can just fly for the treatment day.  After talking to them I kind of look back of how much I have raised already and thought about doing it, if I start this treatment will I be able to sustain it? 

I then phoned in my husband, talked about it and the excitement boils down to more disappointment and sadness.  Reality is we can't afford and might go bankrupt if we continue to do it on our own......for now I can do the high dose vit c treatment and mistletoe with our savings and with money I am making from my decor business....but seems not possible for too long and for Hyperthemia treatment......Tears starts falling to my face, and I just did myself a pity party.  It is so frustrating when healing and help doesn't happen.  I needed more funds, I have raised a few money since I started the fundraising, few people have donated and these are the people who I do not know or barely knew.  I cried and prayed, I will just continue to trust him.  If it is his will, nothing is possible.  He will send help and mercy and maybe healing.....may his will be done........