In spite of this, I still find beauty in waking up every morning whether I feel good or not because God has given me another day to live. I think being grateful is one of the character that has helped me find happiness amidst of this difficulties. When I think about not being able to get up, I still thank God because I am still alive and able to breathe. When I think about my pain, I think about those people who are suffering and yet they can't afford to buy pain medicine and alleviate their pain and my heart cries for them. Then I realized how blessed I am that God has provided me all the things I needed and prepared me to battle this. He brought me into a place where I don't have to worry about conventional treatment. I could have just live in the Philippines and got sick without getting proper treatment.
But God has prepared this journey for me. He didn't plan for me to get sick....
Jeremiah 29:11 11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Yes, my hope is with The Lord, I am so blessed that he has planned another journey for me. This time, he sent me into a healing place, a place where I can get treatment that I've never thought we can afford. He planned all this things and work according to his plan, he sent people of all different walks of life, to send their help, love and support.
These people helped me raised money for my integrative treatment. I am in tears and overwhelmed with joy every time I think about how it all works together and could not thank God enough, I just want to glorify him with thanksgiving.
Going back last week when I was in the hospital, my oncologist talked to me and said I have few days left, and asked me if I am ready for the possibility of dying in Langley. I said I am ready for God's plan, may His will be done.
In spite of all of this, I still haven't thought of dying, yesterday when we arrived in Vancouver I felt a sense of calmness and peace knowing that The Lord is walking with me through this and everything will work according to his plan.
Today as I receive my first day of integrative treatment here in Fort Landley, BClangley bc, I am full of hope that this is going to help me settle my liver and I'll get my strength back in a few days. We will be staying here in Langley for 4-6 weeks of treatment.
I believe in my heart that I am going to get better soon. To everyone that has been part of my journey, I can't thank you enough for all the support, love and prayers you've shown me. I'll be forever grateful for this. You all will be my inspiration and source of strength to keep fighting. And I thank The Lord for your lives and may he blessed you more. Thank you Lord for blessing me much more than I deserve.