Picture taken at TBCC hospital (10/10/13) Another visit at the hospital (TBCC) this time with upgraded room, I was just admitted three weeks ago due to severe enlargement of my liver and causing great pain. This time, I get to enjoy the room alone. Usually 2 patient each room at the palliative care unit. Hubby jokes about it and said this happened if you are a frequent guest :-). The truth is, I was on isolation because of the shingles I developed two weeks ago. My immune system has gotten so weak because of the steroids I am taking to calm my liver.
I am not sure where to start, should I start complaining because there has been so much going on lately. Liver failing, fluid build up (ascites), shingles, hemoglobin count getting low each week, thus, blood transfusion requires each time. My body is deteriorating I must say and too much complications as a result of side effect from the chemotherapy treatment itself for the last 3 years.
To TOP IT all, I was told by my Oncologist that I only have 2.5 months to live. This, to me is the most painful and unacceptable news. I thought of my lil Sofia right away, my mind starts to scares me, wanting to scream and asked GOD, WHY? but I remained calmed. I did not shed tears when he was talking about it, my husband Arnel was right beside me, he was holding my hand. As he continue to talk, seems like I couldn't understand anymore, I was looking at him but my mind is wondering, thinking of what is going to happen. I talked to GOD immediately and asked for strength to accept it, and to remind me that He is in CONTROL, that only HIM can tell when it is my time to go. There was an immediate calmness, peace knowing He will never leave me in this battle for HE already sustained me for the last 3 years.
Then I came back to reality, I asked my Dr. what we else we can do, and assured him that I WILL KEEP the FIGHT and will not GIVE UP just because I only have 2 months. We talked about LIVER BIOPSY, this might help us choose the best treatment for my liver. Which should have been done 3 yrs ago, God is good because he led me to this new ONCOLOGIST.
So I got admitted at TBCC thursday for LIVER BIOPSY, I am supposed to stay for 4 hours only at the hospital and can go home after. But I wasn't feeling to well, I was grasping for air the past few days and I have been feeling week. I knew that my hemoglobin is getting too low again. Being my own advocate, I said I am staying overnight and would like a request for blood work and check my hemoglobin. Believe me, for the last 3 years, my medical knowledge has been great than I can almost practice medical field :-). So, true enough the hemoglobin result came back too low, immediately they gave me 2 bags of blood. I felt better after the blood transfusion. I also decided to get the FLUID drained in my abdomen, so I feel better for the long weekend, and I get to enjoy it with my SOFIA and my husband. Hubby said I am like a car that needs to be tuned up :-).
All these procedure comes with risks, liver biopsy, fluid drainage, blood transfusion and requires courage to do all of this. I must say I have been courageous and when the radiologist asked me, I hope I did not hurt you too much with the procedure, I said that is just a vacation for me compared to the bone pain and liver pain I have been experiencing with a smile in my face :-).
I must say that I drew all my strength from GOD, my prayer helped me go through it with less fear. My body felt so sore the next day, but I still find time to go to church and share my Testimony of Faith. To give him thanks for my life, my daughter, my husband and people who has been supportive and praying for us. For walking with me all throughout this cancer journey, and for extending my life for the past 3 years.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Psalms 69:30 I will praise the name of God with a song, and will magnify him with thanksgiving
I am not sure where to start, should I start complaining because there has been so much going on lately. Liver failing, fluid build up (ascites), shingles, hemoglobin count getting low each week, thus, blood transfusion requires each time. My body is deteriorating I must say and too much complications as a result of side effect from the chemotherapy treatment itself for the last 3 years.
To TOP IT all, I was told by my Oncologist that I only have 2.5 months to live. This, to me is the most painful and unacceptable news. I thought of my lil Sofia right away, my mind starts to scares me, wanting to scream and asked GOD, WHY? but I remained calmed. I did not shed tears when he was talking about it, my husband Arnel was right beside me, he was holding my hand. As he continue to talk, seems like I couldn't understand anymore, I was looking at him but my mind is wondering, thinking of what is going to happen. I talked to GOD immediately and asked for strength to accept it, and to remind me that He is in CONTROL, that only HIM can tell when it is my time to go. There was an immediate calmness, peace knowing He will never leave me in this battle for HE already sustained me for the last 3 years.
Then I came back to reality, I asked my Dr. what we else we can do, and assured him that I WILL KEEP the FIGHT and will not GIVE UP just because I only have 2 months. We talked about LIVER BIOPSY, this might help us choose the best treatment for my liver. Which should have been done 3 yrs ago, God is good because he led me to this new ONCOLOGIST.
So I got admitted at TBCC thursday for LIVER BIOPSY, I am supposed to stay for 4 hours only at the hospital and can go home after. But I wasn't feeling to well, I was grasping for air the past few days and I have been feeling week. I knew that my hemoglobin is getting too low again. Being my own advocate, I said I am staying overnight and would like a request for blood work and check my hemoglobin. Believe me, for the last 3 years, my medical knowledge has been great than I can almost practice medical field :-). So, true enough the hemoglobin result came back too low, immediately they gave me 2 bags of blood. I felt better after the blood transfusion. I also decided to get the FLUID drained in my abdomen, so I feel better for the long weekend, and I get to enjoy it with my SOFIA and my husband. Hubby said I am like a car that needs to be tuned up :-).
All these procedure comes with risks, liver biopsy, fluid drainage, blood transfusion and requires courage to do all of this. I must say I have been courageous and when the radiologist asked me, I hope I did not hurt you too much with the procedure, I said that is just a vacation for me compared to the bone pain and liver pain I have been experiencing with a smile in my face :-).
I must say that I drew all my strength from GOD, my prayer helped me go through it with less fear. My body felt so sore the next day, but I still find time to go to church and share my Testimony of Faith. To give him thanks for my life, my daughter, my husband and people who has been supportive and praying for us. For walking with me all throughout this cancer journey, and for extending my life for the past 3 years.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Psalms 69:30 I will praise the name of God with a song, and will magnify him with thanksgiving
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